worries

OK so you know all those end of the world shows? Like a huge storm comes and mankind is wiped of the face of the earth. Or super virus attacks millions and only 3 are left... what happens now. Well those shows freak me out. I am not sure if it started when i had kids or what but seriously those shows can bring on a panic attack. Well we just watched the new show "The colony". Why my husband loves these shows i don't know. Well if you did not see it the idea behind the show is super virus kills almost everyone, infrastructure fails, no water, no power etc etc. Well the "reality show" puts a group of people in this situation and they have to figure out how to survive. really well done if you did not watch it as far as the psychological breakdown they force on these people.

2am the next morning i am wide awake. I mean not going to fall back to sleep any time soon, that kind of awake. Well you know what i was thinking about. in the little mini tragedy going on in my head the super virus had gotten almost everyone. The government was breaking down and all in all it was not looking good. Washington shuts down as everyone is left to fend for themselves. So i am in tears at 2am thinking about all the different ways my family will die because i did not now how to provide for them other than by looting Wal-Mart.

So that got me thinking about the environment which caused me to think about a conversion i had with a friend awhile ago. My friend thinks that a few hundred years from now there will be so little water left that the government will start rationing it out. And as the past has taught us with rationing the rich survive and everyone else dies or starts resorting to the black market. So suddenly at 2:45am i am in panic and trying to come up with ways to save the world.

Finally because i do believe in a higher power and i had really worked myself up I prayed. and prayed and did a little more praying.

Does anyone else torture themsleves with horible thoughts when they should be asleep.